Gazing into the darkness of my room
my mind wonders throughout;
What if I never…
I hate the way I…
Please let him/her be okay…
The longer I stay within darkness,
the more I feel its grasp tightening.
I can no longer find an escape
until the brightness from the Sun
peeks through my blinds and awakens me
Awaken from a wondrous sleep
with a mop atop of your head
and dry saliva trailing from mouth
Your sweet prince walks in and places
a kiss on top of your forehead
as well as the unborn child.
You lay back down for another five
minutes while your prince cooks
Replace my old tattered heart with a new one
Take out my dead, cried-out eyes and give me fresh, vibrant ones
Remove my battered and disfigured arms and legs
Fix me up to look pretty for my next master to play with and discard
Red ants crawling in the forbidden places
Snakes slithering around my neck
I’m gasping for air as my lungs cave
No message or call from you until 5AM
Pictures of you and your assistant surfacing
Things could be much worse
As your callous hands runs up my thigh
exposing my bare flesh, I am jolted alive.
As your steamy breathe caresses my neck
leaving goosebumps in its wake, I am
As the space between us lessens
So does my patience to taste you.
A pictured I colored. Feeling inspired and relieving stress.